To get Lost is to Learn the way. (Lost and Found)

I have been away for purely two reasons 1) Laziness and 2) no motivation to beat the first one.

Like I have been a completely lost soul and now trying to get back to life at a snails space. It sucks, this feeling sucks… It hurts when you actually know you are worthy of doing better things and you are actually great at it but something is just not working with you. You feel lost, you feel like doing nothing, then suddenly you want to do everything and when you actually are on the verge of doing it then there your mind goes blank…You have nothing coming up, and your heart sinks, you feel demotivated and feel miserable for not making it up to your own expectations.

I have been procrastinating, planning, over-analyzing everything like there is a plan, I know how to go about it, everything is just right in front of me…But when it comes to doing it or when it comes to going about it, I go blank. Every part of my body and soul is just against to do it.

I am still in the zone of self-doubt, confusion, no motivation at all. (I took 3 days to complete this blog post) can you believe it? 3 freaking days…

No! not because I had no words to write, I already have written this post in my diary a month back, but just the thought of typing, and then going about with new blog post, no one will read, who cares, why am I even doing this? what difference does it make? Why does no one care? These thoughts, self-doubt, confusion, no motivation at all, just sucks every feeling to get back to even reading a book. Yes, an avid reader like me is finding it hard to even complete one book since past few months. I am not at all reading anything.

I am away from blogging, reading, writing, painting, illustrations, and trying hard to get back at all of these but it seems like it’s a task of moving a huge mountain to get back to even one of these and then imagine getting back to all of these. That’s why as I said, I am working at a snails speed. But what matters is I am trying. I hope I find my way back soon and get back to everything with a bang… I know no one cares but I care and this is all that makes me happy so to keep myself happy I will only have to move the mountains myself… Tough one!

Have you ever been through such a phase in life? Any suggestion? Is anyone willing to guide me here?

7 Comments

Pragnya Mishra

February 5, 2020 at 10:39 am Reply

What matters is that you are trying. You said it and that would push you for more. I would be in no position to advise but can suggest doing a brain dump. Maybe you have too many ideas and in the end, your thoughts intertwine. Try it.

Narinder Bhatia

February 5, 2020 at 10:50 am Reply

That’s quite a heart-rending post and applicable for so many of us (rather all of us). We all go through these phases in life when we feel down and out and when even a small action seems like an uphill task. I must say that you have this natural gift of connecting with the audience through your words and every word you write makes a huge difference to every reader. So, be assured that whatever you are releasing in the universe through your means of blog and words will sooner or later find a way to the right audience 🙂

Each one of us, always has plenty to give and to make a positive difference in others life, so keep churning out as many useful posts as you can because somewhere someone is going to relate to it and learn from it 🙂

I have been through these phases quite often and believe me that it’s not easy to budge even an inch from the downward spiralling comfort zone buy this is exactly where we need to show resolve . For me, the 2 things that work wonder for me is – 1. Taking the smallest possible positive and progressive action/ step to help me move out of this stuck zone and 2. Taking the action “right now” , so that i don’t give time to my brain to start dissecting my action/ decision.

Lastly, being a Life Coach, i would be more than happy to help you in whatever way i can 🙂 . So, feel free to contact me !

Purba Chakraborty

February 5, 2020 at 1:55 pm Reply

We all go through such a phase from time to time.
What matters is that you are aware of it and you are trying your best.
Spend some time with yourself so that you can listen to your inner voice and understand yourself. Your inner voice will guide you.
Much love ❤️

Simrit Bedi

February 5, 2020 at 3:52 pm Reply

I think just pick up thing you like, it can be reading, writing, painting or even cooking. Think that whatever it is you will devote one hour to it in a day. Hope this helps!