So we are finally at the end of A to Z blogging challenge but not the end of my blogging journey and definitely not the end of my wish-list.
Though it’s the end of sharing my wish lists openly. I have a lot more in my wish list but let them be with myself…
What I mean by zeal to live?
Well the one thing I have never learned in my life and still finding it difficult to learn is living in the moment. I don’t know why, I don’t know how to enjoy the present and worry less about the future.
I always fear the future, I always over think, I always think the worse of things that could happen. It’s just like living with some technical brain error within me which I live with.
I never have taken chance to enjoy the moments in life. I have very few beautiful memories to carry along in life. The one thing I wish to learn is to stay in the moment, live in the moment without the fear about what future holds, what tomorrow may bring for me.
There are days I don’t feel like waking up in the morning and getting out of bed (these days every morning I feel so, quarantine is getting on me in the worse way possible) because I don’t look forward to the day that follows. I feel whats the point waking up when you are not able to do things you wish to do and doing things that does not make you happy and you are just dragging yourself to do it.
I am ready to work hard, suffer, get out of my comfort zone for things I really wish to suffer for, rather than just doing things that neither makes me happy nor makes me excited to do things or to suffer for things that I hardly want in life.
These days I feel whatever I do, how much ever art I make, whatever things I do it makes no change out there. It just gets lost in the dark universe out there just like me- A lost soul…
It’s sucking the positive vibe from within me and making me feel despair and I have no idea what to do.
I hope I learn to find the zeal that would help me to live life in a positive way and help me fulfill my dreams, wishes and accomplish my goals in life.
I hope you enjoyed my wish list sharing journey this April.
I have to catch up with reading blogs so do share your blog links if you wish me to visit your blog. I already have some blogs in my list to visit. So for the next few days I am going to catch up on my reading.
I am going no where, since it’s Ramadan and quarantine is taking a lot of my energy and time I will be blogging once a week and if I have time I may manage to blog twice a week. But I wish to continue and not break the chain I have got into…
I am glad I pushed myself to finish this April blogging challenge that to with my illustrations (honestly, some were really bad) but still I tried, did not gave up and finished things on time.
Here I live you and hope you will continue to visit my blog and help me stay motivated to blog more, to write more, to share more…